today has been a decent day, so far. im leaving the door open, as i know things can do a 180 real fast. i got connies laptop fixed, i decided to opt for firefox, only the flash component is not cooperating. grr. but this morning i played with it some more. in the meantime, everything is functioning, and i learned a new thing with macs that makes me want a new one even more.

connie and i went to the sand this morning, it was nice. its been kinda cool lately, so the water had a bite to it, but enjoyable nonetheless. we got back, i got a shower, and hopped over to talk to robin for a minute, which turned into an hour. it was nice to get caught up with her, i really missed having her next door to chat with. i told her what we will be doing  with the garden, and what she missed while she was gone. i may volunteer to go help move her daughter in october, if i can afford it. seems like kent and i werent the only people the universe has dumped on lately. her new grandbaby is absolutely beautiful, dark hair and lots of it, and just a peaceful looking child. 

ive been a responsible citizen today, answering my phone and talking to whoever calls, not everyone was made happy, i did get an apologetic call from the bizzotch of yesterday. i can only spread the money so far, and people have got to realize that. i told one lady, if i could give 25 bucks to everyone who has their hand out, id need 2500 dollars! and if i had 2500 id just pay half of those people in full. but i can do neither.

i went to the store and got a few more groceries, for once farm fresh has some pretty good deals, and i was pleasantly surprised by my total at the register. as i came out of the store, i noticed how very intense the blue of the sky seemed. i caught sight of 2 birds circling in separate parts of the sky and made a mental note to watch the birds this afternoon. since i have connies laptop now in a state of calm, i can join her outside and still try to fix it. 

if anyone knows the ins and out of flash player 9, PLEASE find me. this thing is a headache and a half.

kent actually straightened the mower blade (giggle) and put it back, since black bob wasnt able to find one in his inventory. he mowed the yard, and since he weedeated yesterday, my yard looks ever so spiffy, which makes me a happy gal. 

i may just work on my garden a bit this evening.

can i scream now?

i spoke too soon. my day was going fairly well, now connies laptop is throwing a fit again and i cannot for the life of me figure out why. and the stupid woman i dealt with friday about a bill i was making a partial payment on, is now throwing a tantrum as if i didnt stand in front of her and tell her i would make the remaining payment this friday. i feel like all the world is a child in need of a well-deserved spanking!

i opted to email her after the phone call, so as to put in writing exactly what i said friday and what she said friday along with what was said tonight. legally she cant say what she said to me, and i record all my cell conversations, so she may have butted her head right into a corner. im starting to feel as if im juggling again, and i was trying desperately not to fall back into that trap. i made a weekly list of who gets paid and now that theyre all screaming again, i can feel panic creeping up. 

i tried to laugh today, with people, at people. everyone took it the wrong way or got offended and didnt understand that i was trying to keep it light. everyone i have spoken to, has had a day like mine, dealing with morons. be it family members, coworkers, bosses. my sister seemed to be the only person i had a normal flow conversation with. my best girlfriend of 25 years even showed frustration today, the pitch of her voice told me she was closer to breaking down than i have heard in years.  i dont like hearing that sound.

and now i am able to get connies laptop back to a performance standard, ill go see if i can take my frustrations out on it. if i cant fix it, itll be in pieces in my front yard tomorrow. 

i finally got connies computer restored, or so i think. i had downloaded an adobe doc that sent it into fits. mac has a grey screen of death, as opposed to a blue one for windows. i was right, my issue with the previous reinstall was my own mistake, i had mistook a B for an 8, in my network password. duh!

connie is all excited, i simply hope its not premature. im still learning to clean up her mac, and i cant afford to replace it. i priced laptops the other night when i was bored and was impressed that prices have dropped so far. as much as i want a macbook myself, i cant justify 1200 for one when there are perfectly good windows notebooks for 300 or less. i cant justify that expense at all right now, but its a yule idea. im toying with buying myself a new notebook for yule, and i cant even begin to think about gifts for anyone until i have the current bag of beans paid for.

with this weeks paycheck we will have this garnishment half paid for. yay!

kent is trying very hard, but he is so down about everything. and i realized this weekend that i am done with the 2nd shift bit. he is more lazy on 2nd shift, he doesnt want to begin anything, and thinks he needs a nap every day even if he sleeps 10 hours the night before. must be his ADD. 

he and i got into it earlier about the wire issues i wanted taken care of. i simply wanted all the coax up off the ground so that he can safely weedeat. in other words, making HIS life easier. but he didnt see it that way at the time. he didnt want to do it, and he didnt want to weedeat. he doesnt want to do ANYTHING. 

as much as that sounds like bitching, its more informational. if he leaves everything up to me, i will do it, and i might **** it up, but i didnt **** it up because i was lazy. and i see his inaction as laziness.

anyhoo. im hungry and tired of sitting in this chair screwing around with computers, so im out for a bit.

Is it bad that I cant bring myself to sit and listen to the radio this morning, despite the fact that kelly will be on and I don’t want to miss him? I cant stomach the noise. Kent being home yesterday, it was dead quiet while he slept, I actually made Connie do a succession of worksheets, and read one of the greek books to her. We had a good learning day. Once he got up, it was like Chaos unleashed. Not energy, mind you. He is, after all, the laziest man alive. But he needs noise. And I do not. I prefer natural noise, most of the time. He needs rock radio blaring loudly and I know this man cant hear, but he will try to converse with me over this shit, and then say, I cant hear a word youre saying. *Sigh*

And the moment that cinched the humor for the day: I fixed dinner and we were at the table, beginning to eat, kent was fixing his plate, and Connie was to my right. Some seriously-geezer rock was on his computer and it was still too loud. My child looks over at me (remember, shes 7) and catches my eye; then looks at daddys computer, then back at me, and mouths ‘kill me please’. It was priceless. Absolutely priceless.

If it wasn’t the music, it was the tv, usually left on while he steps outside to smoke. The smoke smell was bad for me this weekend, at least we got him away from those damn cheap cigar things he was  slugging. Ick.

I wish he could quit but he cant see a good reason to do so.  I can only hope he stops someday. Cant push for more, its not my body.

We rode out to the sand last night to hear “Slapwater” a jazz/fusion/old groove band. They definitely put on a good show. The community was out in full force too. No better place to people watch either. Old, young, black, white, and everything in between. It was chilly, and I was glad Connie brought a sarong, we shared it as a windbreak. Next time we will arrive earlier. The moon got brighter and brighter as the sun set, and after about an hour, it started lightning. We headed out as they did their last set, earth wind and fire’s September. After we got back, storms set in big time. We had one crack of thunder and bolt of lightning that was in our front yard, it was so loud, my ears popped while I was finishing up making tea. I was certain it hit something, but never found sign that it did. Storms raged until well past 1 am. We needed it. Im sure my peppers will take off again, they perked up after I watered but now they will be amazing!

Today I pick up a garbage can from a fellow freecycler to hopefully use for my compost bin. Id like to build one out of lattice, but I haven’t the funds for doing that, so for now a big can will do. Ive also got to price tires for my truck. Connie and I posted an ad on CL to babysit, I am trying to make money any way I know how, and she is willing to play with whoever shows up LOL

Kent will go back to work 2^nd shift today, and begin his week again. He was disappointed last night when he crawled in bed behind me. I never told him no, but I wasn’t doing cartwheels because he came to bed either. I guess he needed cartwheels before foreplay. Needless to say: there were neither. Im not turned on by someone who has to be told to do hygiene that should be second nature. End of story.

Connie and I will head to the sand this evening, I think. The tide will be later and later all this week, we may go to sandy bottom and walk some too.